I got there and it was going ok, we did some worship then we discussed everything and we talked about what we want to see happening in school. It was great, we came to a conclusion and we began to pray for it and it was so hard seeing all these people putting out everything for God to move. Then Gunny said is there anyone who needs prayer and then Gunny went first and we prayed for him and I conclude the prayers with nice prayer. Then I suggested that David should go in the circle and let us pray for him seeing as he isn't good with God. He declined and then explained why and somehow I persuaded him to eventually come into the circle which for me was like mind balling because I was saying things that I don't usually say or share with anyone and I promised him that everything would be even better after we prayer for him. I gave him good logic to think about it which isn't what I do but he came into the circle and people started praying for him and I knew exactly what David was talking about and how it felt because I was feeling it and as I saw people praying for him I just couldn't stand to watch it, so I walked out. I was becoming this one major angry person and I was about to hit something when Alex stood in front of me, I almost punch him. LOL then I just told him what I was thinking and it went along the lines as to why did I persuade David to get prayed for or why did I pray well for Gunny. You know, I do want them to be happier but I want them to suffer like me. I don't know what I am doing and I was getting worked up when Britt's parents came and then I figured well seeing as I got this I might as well pray for David and thus I did and again it was a good prayer, the holy spirit spoke through it like many other prayers I have said. Then I took my anger out on Renee's cabinet. LOL Then I asked if anyone else needed prayer and then Renee was like how about you (me) and I was like NO WAY!!! Then I got angry and as people spoke I just shot them down, and then steph tried to say something and I cut her off and she burst into tears and I just wanted to run and hold her in my arms and beg her not to weep. Then people kept saying stuff and I continued to harden up then Jack said I won’t pray for you until you become selfish not selfless and I shot that down and explained how I am selfish and I said it on my blog and what not but deep inside it hit me like a bucket of ice been thrown on me. Then David kind of stormed towards me and I was like What the hell and tried to step back but I had people and a cabinet behind me so I could go nowhere. HE just layed a HEAVY hand, he was like pushing on my shoulder and I wanted to punch him, and Renee said that they had to hold him back! I was about to punch him when Bianca held my hand so he got lucky. People around me were all crying and praying and I felt that I was hurting them then Jack came and I talked to him about everything that was crossing my mind and how I felt that I was hurting these people around me then him and Alex said, "Tash you are been prayed for and you are worried that you are hurting these people how is that selfish. We are praying for you this is about you and you are worried about all these people instead of you! YOU ARE NOT SELFISH!!!!" We continued and then we finished, get slightly awkward when it finishes and people laughed at my thoughts mind you I kept contradicting myself in what I said which might be the base for the laughter. Then we relaxed and then Bianca kept tickling me, it was funny. I made foreign high pitched squealing noises.
I think that was a great story, and maybe there will be more but that was adventure of a life time!!!
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