Im sorry

I got mad at God, mad cause I wan thim in my life and I am so stubborn I don't want to work at it. I want it now because I think that I deserve it now. I got mad because it wasn't and then I spoke to David and I just let words flow, half the time they didn't make sense. He kept saying "I don't understand your english" and I was all over the place, and saying things that were stupid and meaning less.

I really dug myself into 2 holes

1. Knowing God hole

2. Stupidity/failure hole

more number 2, I feel like such an idiot and i feel that its reasons like these that david needed space from me

di dyou hear all that

i feel way to much!!! Im like an emotional bomb that keeps exploding

I dont know where to go from here,

But David made something clear, I do have confidence in God and i have faith

I have faith, who cares if it isn't much, i have it  and God gave me a promise and God can't break promises.

So take that you bastard,
I don't like pain, and I dont want more but there isn't any way around it so i might as well go through life and pain and God

and come out with friends like david and renee

and a daddy like God all beside me!!

Take that again you nimrod (aka as the devil)

I realise that I dont persevere very well, LOL

i see what romans meant, honestly David I'm all good just lashed out in anger