Im going well, I mean I am actually trying really hard to stay positive, is it going well? I think so but its hard. Although I do feel better  each step I take and the outcomes so far are just everything I need! I'm just so glad that I am alive and I love my life and even though I said I hated God its not true. I really don't because I lack the actions to prove my words instead I contradict those words and plan a brighter future for kids to find God for themselves and to hold on to God through their life because these are the fundamental years where we need to get our views and beliefs down pat because if we don't the world is going to toss us about then shove us in the garbage with every other filmsy person.

I'm happy with how everything is going in life

and I am making new friends!

The scenery is turning out to not be half bad!

A memory I cant forget

My stomach is churning and my hands are shaking, this overwhelming guilt is like a fog that has set around me. I have my note all written out and the words I HATE YOU are outlined in bold! As if they would care, I suppose that as they find me dead that she would weap for they money lost as I still was only a dollar sign. Each blow ever struck agasint me is fuel to my misery, each word that has stuck to me burns my skin. Each thought drives me to take each single pill. Each panadol is like the makings of a key, a key to unlock my misery! 24 panadols all sitting in my hand, I hold them protectivly making sure they are safe because they are my key to a better life. Isn't this going to be great, I take each panadol one at a time because I don't like taking pills. My heart begins to throb as I think of people who I love, which when I thought harder and harder was none and my religion was the answer, it was the solution. WHo did i matter to? Who really cared? No one

I dont know why I made my self throw up and not digest the panadols, I just dont know

but sucide is an experience which one can never forget and is like a reason to hang ones head in shame but I figure its time to release the memory because it is nagging me inside and bothering me

Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows

I feel so much better that I said sorry!

Today was just so lovely and nice, I had a good day!

I just strolled down the market and took in the sights and amazing smells

Was a great day and all I ever wanted was just a day that was perfect

but now I see that I dont want that and I cant have that

its like I have to take what is pitched at me but whatever speed I can catch it

minor problemo today but pfft who cares, I dont want my day to be perfect because we were never promised a perfect day but we were promised God.

And I must always count my blessings and never forget them

and dont lose focus and remember how lucky I am

Lucky to have wicked friends who are just brilliant!!! =D

also quick question reader why isnt capital d the other way round why is it D not the curve facing the other way?
like the letter b B they face the same way?

oh well


NITE =D