I thought that if I were given the oppertunity to change I would but when I begin to take away the bleakness of my life, the per say darkness of my life but the light seems to fade with the darkness gone. I hate how having flaws makes me human and how even if a million people starred at a picture not one would percieve it the same as another person. Its how we never know what people are thinking and how we just assume and guess. Damn life, who cares! What does it matter, we are built to fail in this world. We can never ever ever be good enough for people or the world. And people wonder why I have walls built up, I would prefer people not waiting for me to fail. I would prefer if people didnt assume things and stop trying to read me. I lose it at times like many people but that doesn't mean you can read my body language and expect to know whats going on in my mind. It just doesnt work like that.

I hate that I care so much, I hate giving  a damn!!