India

Well I went to India, yay! It was not as good as I thought it would be, It was like after all of my travels so far, my heart has hardend to poverty. That changed! I learnt to STOP comparing my life, faith, looks and marks to everybody, because I do. ( even without knowing it, it almost sub conscious)Its so funny how at this age our life revolves around the opposet gender. Just observing guys and girls, me personally I have grown up out of it and I'm so glad that I have. Every body wants God's love as much as me even if they have stronger faith or not. I didn't realise how much encourage  people require, how much I need too. When we had special days and it was Happy Tash special day. People encouraged me and it brought me to tears, one verse someone gave to me was Matthew 25v34-40. Look it up ( if you can be bothered). if you read it, this person said that this verse reminded them of me. That made em feel so DAMN good! I always encourage others because I treat others as I wish to treated  but the reality is that they wont treat me the same way I treat them but they are too caught up in thier life. I met a little girl, 12 years old, called Mercy. She is beautiful inside and out. She, as every one knows, put most " chrsitians" to shame.  I was on a roll in India, i was connecting with everyone. I set the tone for the trip,  I felt like I could conqure any thing, I was full of life and God shone through me. You should know what happens next. The devil attacked, not small attacks or other stuff. My 2 BIGGEST weakness were not only it but hit so HARD!!! It put me down so much, until i snapped out of my selfish thoughst and was like no nick off. God this is for us and God knew just how to make me feel better. It was like THANKS God, thanks so much. Just a comment for me 3 followers always keep asking how some one is, so talk talk. It feels so good connecting and talking to God. I finally let God begin to shape me. I gave him a chisel, you probs like WHAT?? Not that any one noticed or asked but I haven't been doing so well and I guess people are sick ofme and my problems,but I will never be sick of my friends problems, never!I gave God a chisel to chisel the wall around my heart. When people meet me I place all my cards out, nothin fke or unreal. No masks, just me. It slike I love God because I want to too not because I have too. That the thoughts so far, might be more if i can think of any more.